June2008
I am stuck between two people.
I have to choose between my mom,
and the love of my life..
I would love to be her daughter.
I would love to be his wife.
I never had a mother,
and so far, this is my only true lover.
They have made so many promises,
but too many have been broken…
One or the other will make me happy,
one or the other will really hurt me…
This is a decision that I must make.
But for now, I must have faith,
and pray to not make another mistake…
I know I can do this.
I know I am very smart,
but this is tearing my heart apart…
I think about it every day and night,
but I simply don’t know what is right…
This is all very strange.
For I feel so much sadness.
Yet there is all this rage…
I don’t know where the happiness has gone.
If nothing ever feels wrong,
how do we know?
Whether to hide or to show?
It is bad if we hide it.
But when we show it,
nobody wants to see…
Where am I supposed to be?
I feel all this confusion,
and I wish all this could be a simple illusion.
I wish I could wake up from this heart-breaking nightmare.
When I was young I learned that life just isn’t fair…
Now I am older and wiser.
Now I know that life is rough,
and as we grow,
we become strong and tough.
I remind myself of my memories…
And as I look towards my future,
All I have are my hopes and dreams…
My hopes and dreams are enough to make it through,
even if it mean I have to go on with out you…
I hope one day you understand…
But always remember,
where ever you are,
I will always love you…
